sensitive

Being a sensitive person is totally a mess sometimes. You could cry for something that is not supposed to be cried at. And I absolutely and terribly hate that.

Often someone who used to be a tough, strong person, could cry for some reasons. But, I am not that kind of person, I weep all the time. I cry for many things which are small and so insignificant, you could say. As example, when I hurt somebody’s feeling (or even that somebody actually doesn’t get hurt by what I am doing), and I realize it, I apologize him while my eyes are brimming of tears. I just can’t let the tears stay behind my eyes, but I can’t let him see my tears either. So, I just go to the toilet then, and cry and regret and think how could I do such ridiculous thing there (for God’s sake I hate this silly part). And when I am finally back, that somebody says what’s wrong and I only say some hypocrite words, “Nothing’s happen. Fine. I am sorry once again. Blah Blah Blah *and the topic turns*”

Yeah, that’s one of the sensitivity things that I have and get into. The second thing is, I cannot get mad. I can’t be angry at anyone. And my pals say that’s an absurd condition when someone could directly think that I am crazy.

I know, I knew, I have known, and I had known and I will know and also will be knowing that getting angry is such a damn guilty pleasure, when finally you can push everything out of your body, when you could take all the pressures out, when you can sinfully being relieved after doing that. Okay, I get it, I get what you mean, but I don’t get what makes it so beneficial.

I often think that there’s no need for me to get angry, it wastes your time, it wastes your energy, it wastes your saliva (sometimes somebody desperately can’t control his saliva if he gets angry. Yeah, you know what I mean), and it wastes your love. Why does it waste your love? Because I think, when you’re getting angry, it often takes your get-angry-object to reply you. He then gets angry at you too. And you two get angry at each other. And it ends with you two, go home after a long and devastating fight. Hating each other. Hate this part.

So, because in my opinion anger is pathetically not beneficial for anybody, I cancel getting angry in my daily-what-to-do-as-a-human list. But maybe sometimes and somehow I would like to join and feel the guilty pleasure. Please don’t get me wrong, I have got angry before. Surely. I am still a human.

But actually this is that I always do when I get angry :

1. Act like nothing is happening.

2. Smile and just get into a talk like usual.

3. If I can’t take it anymore, I then go to the toilet.

4. Cry.

See? When it gets into my habitual problem, it always reaches cry at the end.

Beside those two things, I weep when I listen to some special songs, I weep when I have to tell about my failure, I weep when somebody does something sweet to me.

I weep for many things, I just don’t show it to everyone. I am sensitive. HAHA

What do you think I should do?

see! me back!

hey, umm okay, i am a lil bit nervous. i am not in a good condition for doing tumblr, but this is obviously a rare chance!

long time no see people! many people have joined tumblr recently.

and i have been desperately decreasing my frequency with constant negative acceleration of doing tumblr since i’ve joined tumblr one and a half year ago :(

okay, this week i am having a final test, so far so good, alhamdulillah, so wish me luck for the next two days :)

wish i could join you people soon!

bye!

no offense : how to be a gadis gaul bandung

beberapa hari yang lalu, sempat terlibat perbincangan antara saya dan beberapa teman saya via twitter (dan beberapa memang salah satu dari anak gaul juga).

dan kesimpulannya :

ANAK GAUL BANDUNG :

• are wearing high-waist pants

• wearing high-heels or some kind of ankle boots

• BELAH TENGAH, rambut panjang, bergelombang di bawah (udah ga jaman keriting gantung)

• atasan, masuk ke haigh-waist pants, ga berlengan

• hobi nyorseli (sour sally, buat yang ga tau, itulooooh, yang di pvj, yoghurt yang kayak eskrim)

• hobi MEVEJE (pergi ke PVJ, hangout sama anak gaul lain, yang seringkali gayanya cuma beda warna)

• BLACKBERRY (buat yang gatau singkatan dari BB, hmm, silikonnya warna warni mek)

dan yang terakhir yang menyempurnakan semuanya adalah..

BRACES.

ya, ini adalah fenomenal anak muda, braces warna warni, kadang kadang di matchingin dan janjian warna sama temen se gengnya atau malah pacarnya. tapi emang seringkali braces look cute.

oh iya, dalam sehari they can spend a lot amount of money!

ke banyak restoran mahal, tapi makannya disisain takut gendut.

selamat mencoba menjadi anak gaul bandung sejati :)

jangan lupa nyari duit dulu deh yang banyak atau minimal nangis-nangis minta beliin BB ke orang tua. (the most update things are must!)

GOOD LUCK!

Politics 101

mysearu:

somethingintellectual:

FEUDALISM: You have two cows. Your lord takes some of the milk.

PURE SOCIALISM: You have two cows. The government takes them and puts them in a barn with everyone else’s cows. You have to take care of all of the cows. The government gives you as much milk as you need.

BUREAUCRATIC SOCIALISM: You have two cows. The government takes them and put them in a barn with everyone else’s cows. They are cared for by ex-chicken farmers. You have to take care of the chickens the government took from the chicken farmers. The government gives you as much milk and eggs as the regulations say you need.

FASCISM: You have two cows. The government takes both, hires you to take care of them and sells you the milk.

PURE COMMUNISM: You have two cows. Your neighbors help you take care of them, and you all share the milk.

RUSSIAN COMMUNISM: You have two cows. You have to take care of them, but the government takes all the milk.

CAMBODIAN COMMUNISM: You have two cows. The government takes both of them and shoots you.

DICTATORSHIP: You have two cows. The government takes both and drafts you.

PURE DEMOCRACY: You have two cows. Your neighbors decide who gets the milk.

REPRESENTATIVE DEMOCRACY: You have two cows. Your neighbors pick someone to tell you who gets the milk.

BUREAUCRACY: You have two cows. At first the government regulates what you can feed them and when you can milk them. Then it pays you not to milk them. Then it takes both, shoots one, milks the other and pours the milk down the drain. Then it requires you to fill out forms accounting for the missing cows.

PURE ANARCHY: You have two cows. Either you sell the milk at a fair price or your neighbors try to take the cows and kill you.

LIBERTARIAN/ANARCHO-CAPITALISM: You have two cows. You sell one and buy a bull.

SURREALISM: You have two giraffes. The government requires you to take harmonica lessons.